We all have one. We’ve all been there, and to be honest, getting over it is impossible if you try to get pass it on your own. Truth be told, I was never the one to take blame for anything, in fact, I pointed fingers more times than I can count because I was never wrong, but what I’ve learned is probably more important than life itself. Let me explain…
My Past Was Speaking Over Me
My past was ugly! I cry thinking about it (not anymore though, you’ll see why I dried ’em tears up). I cried because I felt ashamed of the things I did, the people I’ve wronged, the lies, the hurt and the pain I’ve caused. Listen! my past was so ugly that I felt I was too deep to be saved. I was so afraid that “Karma” was coming for me because I thought, “there’s no way you’re going to do all you did without getting it back one day in life”…but God! Karma wasn’t my portion because God stepped in for me at my lowest point. I mean, I was depressed and afraid of life itself to the point where I started loosing weight, I couldn’t eat, I woke up every morning at 5 am with my heart pounding so hard that I wanted to throw up. (honestly, tears are filling my eyes as I write this, not because I’m still living in my past, but because I’m happy). I’ve learned that God never wastes our pain. Only we do that. God has a plan for great purpose and a beautiful future for all who believe in Him. Not despite our past, but because of it.
God Turned My Past Into Purpose
If you haven’t figured who it is that I divorced, I bet you’re wondering, hmm? The ugliest guy in the world, he’s mean and I hated myself, he’s ruthless and I felt lost and hopeless. His name is “The Past”. My past spoke over me for years and I hated who it made into. I was bitter and cold but praise be to God—I’m a new creation. I was led to share my story and I was led to be very open so I can encourage you today that if you believe your past still has control over you—take heart and know that you aren’t alone. As Christians, we need to know…
2 Corinthians 5:17
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”
I never liked thinking about my past, much less share. I didn’t want to be transparent or vulnerable. I gratefully accepted His forgiveness and healing, but I wasn’t ready to accept His call to give me a purpose. The man who was healed from demon possession in today’s key verse experienced similar feelings. I never had a purpose before now. I was like a tumbling weed rolling in the dry desert—until I gave my life to God.
This tormented man lived as an outcast for many years, naked and alone in the tombs of Gadara, near Galilee. When he saw Jesus, he fell to his knees and shouted at the top of his voice, begging for mercy from God. Jesus commanded the demons to leave him and then cast them into a herd of pigs that rushed down the steep bank into a lake and drowned. The man was healed physically, but more importantly, spiritually.
He was so overwhelmed with gratitude for what Jesus had done, he begged to travel with Jesus and stay by His side. But Jesus had other plans. Instead, Jesus told him to go and share his story. And he did.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
One Of My Prayer Point
Lord, help me find the courage and the desire to share what You have done in my life. Turn my past into my purpose and refuse to let my pain be for nothing. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Jesus didn’t die on the cross for giggles, He didn’t die for the enemy to use our past against us, instead, He died for us to stand and walk away from that which held us back. The bible says that God knows the plans he has for us, it speaks about knowing us from we were in our mother’s womb so I refused to believe that “The Past” was my portion and you can too.
(Isaiah 43:18-19) says we shouldn’t allow former things to trouble our hearts, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
“I just filed for a Divorce. Divorcing my Past, Divorcing my Pain, Divorcing my Doubt, Divorcing Negativity. Divorcing my Setbacks and Divorcing Lack. Because Jesus is my Lawyer, The Judge(My God) gave me Full Custody of my Destiny, Full Custody of my Call, Full Custody of my Life. Divorce yourself from your Past so that your Future can be released!”
I hope my testimony will encourage someone and I pray that whatever it is that held you back will be put to shame in Jesus name, Amen. Thank you so much for reading. Whew😌 these words blessed my heart even now, I hope it blesses your heart as well. You can find me online on Facebook and Instagram. If you’d like to be alerted whenever I publish a new post subscribe via email.